I've always had issues with buying things for myself. Sure, up until a few years ago I couldn't afford to go on a shopping spree, but even now when I buy something I really like, I berate myself. 'I don't need it, it's too much money, it's just wasteful'. Ok, so I do end up buying many lovely things for myself, I just wish I didn't hate doing it. Let's not talk about the watch purchase I made recently. Sure, I used the money I worked hard for (supposedly), but I still feel foolish. There is a little part of me that says 'you don't deserve nice things'. I wonder where it stems from? As far back as I can remember, my mother would encourage us to find one or two nice purchases, instead of lots of unnecessary things. She'd always make sure we had what we wanted, and put her own wants aside. But she'd also criticize the crap out of everything else we did...perhaps I've discovered the source after all...
I do feel fortunate that I can afford the lifestyle I lead, and have the money to get the things that I want. Mark and I just spent a small fortune on lunch yesterday, and I have no regrets about that (probably because it was for 'us' and not just 'me').
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